I have been a smoker for 5 years. Slightly longer actually but that’s not important.
I smoke 20 a day, have done for the entirety of my smoking. Now we all know the health side effects, such as dying, but the truth is I enjoy smoking. I like having a cigarette to break up my day, I enjoy the rare bit of thinking time you get smoking by yourself, it is a truly brilliant way to meet new people and it is particularly pleasant when sipping a pint of San Miguel in the sunshine.
It is also a fantastic stress reliever. I don’t know why anyone would want to give up…
However, after much thought, and the fact that I spend £2,800 a year on something that is killing me, I have decided to cut my losses. Using an online calculator I discovered that over the last five years I have spent about £12,000 on these little fitness sticks and smoked roughly 35,000 of them.
Where I used to be ridiculously fit and covering every blade on the football pitch I now prefer to make the easier and less effective runs, I am no longer a fan of closing someone down and I would rather take a booking for a cynical foul than chase after someone who has gone past me. Granted some of this is down to drinking but let’s handle one vice at a time!
So for mainly financial reasons I am now replacing each cigarette with a mug of coffee, or two minutes of fresh air. I haven’t tried to give up before but I don’t believe in the stop-smoking aids. I will work out my own way to do it. Thus I am at work with no cigarettes to tempt me, and there isn’t a shop for a mile. Tonight I will run somewhere. Then I will drink lots because otherwise I won’t sleep because of all the caffeine.
And once I am no longer addicted to nicotine I will allow myself a couple of fags when I go to the pub. If I can go from 20 a day to 10 a week I’ll have won. That is my aim, but it first means going cold turkey. Besides I can’t quit completely because quitters never win.
The problem I guess is that I am used to having less money because I have smoked for as long as I’ve worked, and though serious health problems could manifest themselves tomorrow, at the age of 23 they are impossible to get my head around.
I will probably use this blog as a bit of a vent and detached from the usual writing. Today is the first day of my first attempt to give up smoking. And I’m pretty pissed off at my decision.